Ok, I am not going to beat around the bush. The holidays make me sad. I have never done well with Thanskgiving probably because bad things seem to happen to our family in November. I always really liked Christmas but the past few years haven't been stellar. I miss my kids being little, I miss my parents, I just miss a lot of things.
So, the day after Thanksgiving is usually the day I put up the Christmas tree and I didn't do it. I am going to force myself to do it tomorrow. It doesn't even seem like it should be Christmas. Shopping is going to be a non-issue this year -- everybody is getting money. Christmas shopping has sort of become an agonizing event for me -- never knowing what to buy, picky people, expensive taste-- yep, they are getting money. but I will wrap it up really cute.
I am reading a book called "Christmas Bells" by Jennifer Chiaverinni and it is good but still not putting me in the spirit. I have been looking at people's lovely trees on Facebook but it isn't helping. I am hoping this passes soon because if December goes as fast as the rest of the year it will be gone before I even get around to getting the ornaments down.
I have watched a couple of sappy, Hallmark Christmas movies and that hasn't helped. maybe I should try "The Bells of St. Mary's" or "Love Actually". Or music, maybe? I will have to try that.
I guess you could say I have a case of the Bah-Humbugs. What to do, what to do. I can't let this get the best of me -- if I do I will really regret it. I have a list a mile long of things to get done and I can't seem to get started. I have lost my mojo, I guess -- never really knew what "mojo" was but I think mine is gone.
Well, I think I will take my Christmas book to bed and see if I can get a little more inspired.
Hmmmm.......this isn't good!