the more honest I am, with myself and everybody else. Since my birthday I have had several things pop into my head about myself. Observations. Being honest and true to myself. Having opportunity to be honest with other people, hopefully not in a hurtful way.
Here are a few of my thoughts--
I don't like hot food.
I don't like cooking big meals.
I don't like feeling used and I am particularly sensitive about people thinking I am too stupid to know when I am being used.
I will never be a minimalist.
I wish I had an old house with a big front porch, a country kitchen and lots of bedrooms with white iron beds lined up. I would use white linens and quilts and white flowy curtains at the windows.
I don't like trying to finish books that I don't like. New rule, if you don't like them just quit reading.
I am a failure at intuitive eating.
I am addicted to cookies.
I hate allergies because all I want to do is go outside.
I don't like my sofa but I feel guilty for not liking my sofa -- some people don't have a sofa and I am lousy for being a sofa snob.
I am slowing down and I actually like it. I feel like I have been on some sort of a race all my life and now I am not. Whew -- a sigh of relief.
I don't like to cook, sew, or clean. I have given up hobbies because of the mess they make. The truth is, I didn't like them to begin with but felt like I "should" like them.
I secretly want my husband to cut my hair with his new clippers. It would be bad but I feel like it would be fun.
I wish I had a screen door so the kids could slam it and I could tell them to stop.
I wish I lived somewhere that there wasn't an HOA.
I am falling out of love with technology except for Rosy, my new iphone. I still love her.
I want to travel around Texas, maybe on the train.
I wish I could draw.
I wish I hadn't sold my piano and I wish I had practiced more.
I wish I could go to San Antonio for a couple of weeks and just "be" there again for a while.
I miss the 50's and the 60's. If I could go back just for a day, oh the things I would change!
I have a tendency to live in the past.
I am a deeper thinker than most people think I am.
Ok, now I need lunch.
Have a great Saturday!
