End of October

 The end of October is rather disturbing.  Let’s review — this weekend we move the clocks back, we have a full moon and it is Halloween.  What could go wrong?

On a personal level things are just frustrating. I feel like all I do is whine.  I used to be very involved in crafting and fiber arts.  I love art — can’t draw a straight line with a ruler but I love art.  My dabbling in the arts has always been in the form of quilting or embroidery and more recently, cardmaking.

In May, when I broke my wrist I was told I would be able to regain about 80% of the use of my hand and I would be able to do MOST of the things I was used to doing.  That sounds promising but the reality is far different that you would think.

Thanks to the pandemic I have not gone out of my house for much of anything.  Oh, I have made a couple of runs to the grocery store and doctor appointments, of course.  But, in regards to just hitting Target and stocking up on things, like greeting cards and wrapping paper and such, well, it just hasn’t happened.

I needed Halloween cards for the kiddos.  So, I just decided to make them.  It has been almost a year since I have made cards.  Most of my supplies have either been used up or are aging rapidly.  I didn’t know if I even had enough supplies to cobble together four cards.  So, upstairs I bound (ok, gross exaggeration) and I set about making some cards.  My creative mojo is clearly gone but I forged ahead.  I managed to come up with four rather simple cards but my hand got stiffer and stiffer and now it is swollen and just hurts.

Over the years, I have given up quilting because of arthritic hands and knees.  Now I guess I will have to give up card making.  I am going to try to do some cross stitch but I am not very confident that I will be able to .  If I can’t do that I am going to get rid of all my supplies and just read.

I don’t really understand why breaking my wrist has hurt my hand so bad.  I understand my wrist hurting but I don’t understand my hand swelling and hurting.  I  as told that it was a very bad break and that I have extensive and severe arthritis in that hand but it never hurt like this before.  Whatever is going on is making me very sad.

I am tired of being home, I would love to go to a bookstore or out to eat, I feel pretty shut in and now I can’t enjoy the things I like to do.  

And it is going to be a full moon and Halloween.  What could go wrong?